“My Little Boy” (Justin’s Song)

Monday, January 6, 2014 View Comments

This is a post by Jeffrey Jay Jackson, the father of a 10-year-old boy on the autism spectrum. Below Jeffrey shares his story and the beautiful song he wrote for his son. 

I am the father of a 10-year-old boy, Justin, who was diagnosed with PDD-NOS at age 3. Although Justin is smart in his own unique way, he is for the most part non-verbal and still has difficulty with communication and comprehension.

As a father of a child with a disability, it’s sometimes hard to understand why your son has to be the way he is. However, I truly believe God made Justin the way He intended him to be. I may not understand the reason, but do understand that all I really have to do is be patient, love Justin with all my heart, do the best I can to help him and trust in God to see us through.

I wanted to share a song I recently wrote that was inspired by Justin. I wanted to put in words the way I feel about my son. As I wrote this song I was thinking there are probably thousands/millions of dads who feel the same way. To be the parent of a child with a disability or special needs, whether mental or physical, is the hardest thing we’ll have to deal with. I see this song as being an anthem for all those who have a child with autism or other disability, but know one thing is sure – the unconditional love of our child.

“My Little Boy” (Justin’s Song)
© 2013 Jeffrey Jay Jackson

From the day that he was born, I was proud as I could be
A new addition to the family for his brother, mom, and me
But as time went by, I knew something was wrong
The fight of his life, and I’d have to be strong

For my little boy, he is my son
I will love him every day until my life is done
Though I may not understand, why he is this way
I will always be there for him, I will always say
He’s my little boy

What would you do if your dreams got cast away?
Would you lose all hope, or call on God and pray?
Would you give all you have if you could find another way?
To give him his life back, and start a brand new day

For your little boy, he is your son
You will love him every day until your life is done
Though you may not understand, why he is this way
You will always be there for him, you will always say
He’s your little boy

Innocent and pure, an angel from above
Light of my life, unconditional love

What do you feel? What do you see?
Do you know how much I wish that you could talk to me?
Are you happy? Are you sad?
Sometimes I wonder if you even know that I’m your dad

‘Cause you’re my little boy, you are my son
I will love you every day until my life is done
Though I may not understand, why you are this way
I will always be here for you, I will always say
You’re my little boy, you are my son
I will love you every day until my life is done
Though I may not understand, why you are this way
I will always be here for you, I will always say
You’re my little boy

Jesus loves him this I know...

My wish is to bring this song to life. I have a vision that this song that would touch all those affected by autism and other disabilities. A song that would bring attention to the cause of helping those that need it. When I wrote this song I could hear a group like Rascal Flatts singing it. Beautiful vocals with lots of emotion. This is something I’m proud of and want to share with everyone to let them know I love my son Justin and that he is not forgotten. Something that I could leave for him once I’m gone to let him know his father always loved him. The music is already written as well so if you have any ideas, suggestions or contacts in the music industry who you think might be interested, please feel free to contact me at jjgj1018@sbcglobal.net. Thank you.